Hello?

Hmm, the first post. I used to love the first post on a new blog. I used to love blogging. I used to blog so much I have neglected blogs on several different platforms gathering cyber dust.

The thing is, I want to blog again, but I have this issue... I forget the name of the condition, but it's one of those things usually associated with PTSD, Anxiety, and Depression. I have all three and OCD which, after years, led to me realising I struggled to feel enjoyment with past hobbies. I kept saying I liked or loved something, but I wasn't really feeling it.

When I figure out the name of the condition, again, I will blog about it.

So after no blogging for years I decided to start back up again. 

I used to read heaps. I was obsessed! Maybe it was partially OCD and maybe partially passion, either way it was a shit tonne of reading. I used to read roughly 100 - 150 books a year. Obsessed. Then, when this latest bout of Depression hit its peak (2015), I stopped reading. I couldn't do it anymore. Along with reading went writing and blogging. 

Until last year.

At some point in the later part of 2020 I picked up a book and began reading. In the same month I read and finished another book! I was in shock! I ended up reading 4 books last year and wanted to read more. It was amazing!

Then I got my idea about blogging. If I could start reading again and somewhat enjoy it, maybe I would feel the same about blogging. I also hope this leads to wanting to write again. We'll see.

Of course I'm also an advocate for education and transparency about mental illness. Naturally I will be blogging about my mental hangups from time to time, but it's not going to all be about illness. Just sometimes.

Peace out 💗